Day 32 of Write a Book in 45 Days Challenge

Posted on by Jona Nightingale
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If I missed a day and just took it to rest, would that be so bad?

Something funny about deadlines is how much I use them to get work done, and how much I struggle with them.

I want my work to be perfect, for it to shine like no other, but with a deadline, I struggle. The not so funny thing is I am still aiming for perfection, even if I know a first draft can be trash.

But the sad thing is, I want my trash to be treasure among trash. I don’t want a shitty first draft.

And that’s the problem, because I can assure you that the premise of this novel has changed at least five times since I started.

You see, I wanted a darker book with notes of gothic influence, a bit of unhinge dynamics. But none of that is present.

Not one single drop! This book even refuses my offer to be soft horror. I feel so over and underwhelmed.

So what did I do today?

Nothing, well, I wrote a little bit. But it doesn’t feel like it will ever be good enough now.

I want to fucking cry, and maybe take another nap.

Word Count: 29,230 words

See you tomorrow, friends.

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Jona Nightingale is a poet and writer, often focusing on themes such as mental health, identity, and holding space. A writer of poetry, horror, and speculative fiction. When not writing, you can find them reading, hiking, drinking tea, or flirting with their darlings. You can find them on all socials at @jonathenightingale

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