Day 39 of Write a Book in 45 Days Challenge

Posted on by Jona Nightingale
book in the background with its pages open and the text Write a book in 45 days challenge over it

I feel like I have failed.

Theoretically, I know, not waiting for motivation or inspiration when it comes to writing is a very wise way of going about your craft.

Reality is different.

In reality, I am struggling with feeling like I give a damn about this story and what the characters feel. My poor, beautiful, characters with all their problems and emotions. I want to honor them in the stories I write, but now my point feels moot.

Failure is a stepping stone to success, it is part of the eventual process we must overcome.

I can own my failure, as I call it, and allow it to help me write better stories, or I can feel ashamed of myself for trying.

If I am being honest, I have enough in my life to feel ashamed of, I choose to use this as a lesson to grow.

So what did I do today?

I restored my dopamine levels.

My bed knows me intimately now, the blankets are my friends.

Though I still feel tired, and I know I will not meet my goal of 50,000 words. I am still happy that I can and will keep writing.

Word Count: 34,761 words

See you tomorrow, friends.

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Jona Nightingale is a poet and writer, often focusing on themes such as mental health, identity, and holding space. A writer of poetry, horror, and speculative fiction. When not writing, you can find them reading, hiking, drinking tea, or flirting with their darlings. You can find them on all socials at @jonathenightingale

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